actually...

if just one person would ask me how i am going id be happy...

instead, i get everyone rambling on about how they are going.

much as i am always a happy listening ear, right now i wish everyone would just fuck off unless they want to take an interest in what i have to say for a change.
just for 5 minutes, thats all.
then they can go on rambling about their stupid little lives again, and i'll be all ears.

crystal field theory

its week 4 already and im really enjoying this semester... if there was ever a time for more chemistry, its now.
im doing 2 pure chemistry, 1 biochemistry and 1 molecular biology subjects... such a huge workload.
uni is going great!

so why do i feel so shit?

im feeling pretty down, feeling kinda depressed... ive got the 'my friends are all sick of me and trying to avoid me' thing happening in my brain, even though i know its bullshit as they are all working and busy like i am and the logical part of me knows that they dont have time either and arent ignoring me.

im feeling fat and frumpy, and particularly unattractive... maybe its time for some new clothes, but everything is so tarty and girly and i cant afford to shop at nelson molly and dogstar all the time... stupidly my brain believes that i could lose a dress size or 2... actually, so do i... maybe if i could do a proper shop and stop eating out all the time i might lose some weight.

i have all these ideas swimming around my head, but i havent taken a photo in weeks... the darkroom is almost finished and i wont have anything to develop in it!

and to top things off, im dying for a cone!!!

at least the study is going well :)