bad chemicals running thru my brain
if only they were the psychedelic/psychoactive type, im sure i would be alot happier.
my brain has decided it would dump some of those nasty depressing chemicals into my bloodstream today, possibly due to a dream i had this morning that has pissed me off, but more likely for no apparent reason at all.
so in effect, ive spent the day tired, grumpy and wanting to be alone.
the actuality of the day is that ive had more visitors than you can poke a stick at, all uninvited and wondering why im so upset and would i like to talk about it; therefore tired, wanting to rip ppls heads off and in no way shape or form alone.
of course when i get this way and want to be alone, everyone who has come over and has been told to go away by me, now thinks that they have done something to piss me off, and would i like to talk about it.
Look, I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING!!! BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG!!!!
its like im not allowed to have a shitty week, or a shitty day or just crack the shits in general without ppl thinking that im going to be depressed for weeks and its only going to get worse and getting scared i'll do something stupid.
shit... arent i allowed to have ONE DAY when i can have a tizz and be an antisocial brat?
my brain has decided it would dump some of those nasty depressing chemicals into my bloodstream today, possibly due to a dream i had this morning that has pissed me off, but more likely for no apparent reason at all.
so in effect, ive spent the day tired, grumpy and wanting to be alone.
the actuality of the day is that ive had more visitors than you can poke a stick at, all uninvited and wondering why im so upset and would i like to talk about it; therefore tired, wanting to rip ppls heads off and in no way shape or form alone.
of course when i get this way and want to be alone, everyone who has come over and has been told to go away by me, now thinks that they have done something to piss me off, and would i like to talk about it.
Look, I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING!!! BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG!!!!
its like im not allowed to have a shitty week, or a shitty day or just crack the shits in general without ppl thinking that im going to be depressed for weeks and its only going to get worse and getting scared i'll do something stupid.
shit... arent i allowed to have ONE DAY when i can have a tizz and be an antisocial brat?
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