glum

feeling very strange today
bored and lonely and glum
kinda feeling like im coming down, even though its been such a long time since ive had anything to come down off.
looking for tea and sympathy
and maybe a girlfriend. but i dont have time for that now
theres a few things i know im kidding myself about
and i really should just come out and say them
but if i do that, i may lose a very good friend
strange really, because last time i said what i felt i didnt lose a good friend.
i guess i cant shock the same person twice, could be just a bit too much to handle.
working alot, scared im going to lose my job if i dont go their way
scared i wont be able to live if i take the pay-cut
but glad that i would get paid holiday if i did.
its been almost 3 and a half years, i think i deserve a pay rise.
the strange fucked up times we live in.